Yes, I know it’s Saturday…. That’s the kind of week it’s been.
What a week. It’s been the hardest one in a long time.
Early in my newlywed days our Sunday school teacher told us to look around the room. He told us that one day only half of us would remain if we followed the statistics. I remember thinking, not me, never us… and even looking at certain couples thinking about who it might be.
Looking back on that class, I think we are fast approaching that 50% mark.
This year, I walked this road of new single Mom with a friend from one of our newlywed Sunday School classes- another one of those couples that seemed so solid, unable to falter. 10 years ago the future looked bright. Everytime we talked on the phone in the past year, I hung up feeling that she was the strong one. But, this weekend she took her own life, leaving behind a young son.
To say I’m sad is an understatement. Shocked. Reminded that all it takes is a really rough spot in the day, week, year to make a bad decision like that. To just decide that it’s too hard.Then, my blog crashed- for the first time in 3 years. Such a minor thing really. But, after finally seeing my hard work paying off I panicked. What if I lost everything?? And I had 6 hard deadlines to meet in the coming week. It meant 24 hours on and off the phone with support and getting very behind with my blogging workload. This job is such a blessing. I work late into the night while my kids sleep, but I’m there with them all day, every day. They love the perks of being ‘blogger kids’ with the fun crafts and recipes we photograph each week. And I really, really enjoy what I do…but, it is a job and I can’t have the site crashing on me!
No matter what I’m feeling personally- being a Momma can’t stop.
One thing I know, watching this crew do life is good for the soul. I’m reminded what a privilege it is to be their Momma. And even the hardest days are worth fighting through.
So we squeeze in a boat ride on a beautiful day. Because this time of year, you never know when it will be the last for the year.
And we go to the library.
God is good, all the time. Even when life is tough. Even when there are more ‘whys’ than answers.